DEEP DEPRESION

I HATE MY LIFE ITS BORING AND WATS THE PURPOSE OF ME BEING HERE ITS POINT LESS AND DEPRESSING  IF PEOPLE ONLY NEW WERE I WAS COMING FROM OR HOW LONG IVE BEEN HERE OR HOW MUCH I CAN TAKE AND HOW MUCH I CANT TAKE THEN THEY WOULD UNDERSTAND ME AND KONW WAT IM GOIN THROUGH AND NO ITS NOT A LAUGHING MATTER THATS WHY I JUST WANT OUT GO SOMEWERE AMAZING AND EXCITING WERE I CAN LEAVE ALL THIS BEHIND AND START OVER BUT I CAN ONLY DREAM THAT NO ONE UNDERSTANDS AT LEAST NOT UNTIL THIS GIRL I WAS TALKING TO ON THE COMPUTER NAMED NIKKI THE ONE WHO HAS THE PURPLE ROSE NEW WERE I WAS COMING FROM BUT NO ONE ELSE DOES AND I JUST WANT TO LEAVE THIS MY LIFE BEHIND. THIS IS TO MUCH FOR A TEEN I CANT DO IT ALONE BUT YET I AM BECAUSE NO ONE WILL HELP IM JUST HURT AND FRUSTERATED AND MAD ALL THE TIME I HATE IT.